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How to Eat Alone Podcast

Episode 6 - No Babies, No Problem with Elisabeth Scott (High-profile nanny)


A discussion with high-profile nanny, Lis Scott about the decision to remain child free, her recent hysterectomy and why she loves cereal so much.

by Julia Georgallis

2 months ago


Here's the recipe for beetroot and carrot overnight oats to sit alongside this episode. 

You can find more about the We Are Child Free project, which Lis was involved with, here. Lis has also featured in articles by The New York Times as part of the same project.  

I thought these articles were interesting about male bias for women's issues (note - there's way too many for me to post, here are just a handful... I should also point out that I am NOT saying that hysterectomies should be liberally given, they are a serious and irreversible operation but, I am pro choice and more against doctor's not listening to women or not treating pain seriously)

'I begged my doctor for a hysterectomy...' BBC News

'The Female Problem - how male bias in medical trials ruined women's health' The Guardian 

Lena Dunham's hysterectomy, Vogue

A little bit about Endometriosis...

Endometriosis UK 

What is Endometriosis? TOTM

I've really enjoyed following these period health websites/instagram pages/podcasts - there is now a tonne of information and support groups for women and their periods. I would encourage all women, regardless of whether they have 'bad periods' to tap into these important resources. 

Red School 

Balance your hormones, fix your period, live your life Nicole Jardim

Maisie Hill's podcast 

Flo Living, Allisa Vitti (it's a bit pop-uppy, but ignore the marketing and just read the information!)

Flo App

Transcript, interview with Elisabeth Scott by Julia Georgallis

 

Welcome to the How to Eat Alone podcast with me, Julia Georgallis. I’m a baker, food writer and I run edible food museum, The Edible Archive. This podcast discusses issues surrounding solitude and solo dining.  Over the last few episodes, I’ve been talking to different people about various aspects of loneliness and aloneness, which are not necessarily the same thing.  With every episode, I’ve been sharing recipes designed for one, because I find that most recipes are written for two or more people, so you can cook along whilst you listen - think of this podcast as kind of like a dining buddy. 

 

This episode is about babies, or in mine and my guest for this episode, Elizabeth Scott’s case, a lack of them. I don’t know what your experience of this is if you also don’t have children but I’ve reached an age now where people just openly started asking me what my personal plans for procreation are. Like not just family and friends but it’s strangers as well now. Bizarrely, it’s even got to the point where, over the last few months, SO MANY Uber drivers have asked me whether I had kids, or if I wanted kids, or will I have kids in the future or did I have anyone to have a kid with and actually just a few days ago I had another guy (they’re always guys who ask me these questions) who qu when I told him I didn’t have children, he just said, quite aggressively said to me GET ONE. 

 

It is a bit of a funny topic for me - I am nowhere near having children. I’ve been on a bit of a weird journey with it actually, with the idea of starting a family because I’ve had a couple of fertility issues in the past. But aside from that, recently I’ve made my peace with the fact that if I have children in the future, that would be lovely but also if I don’t have children in the future, then that will be lovely too and I’m just going to live my best life. So I don’t MIND all that much when people ask me, but it’s such a but I’m not sure it’s small talk or Uber passenger chat. It’s a question loaded with societal expectations, specifically for women and you don’t know how a woman has experienced these expectations in her life and whether there’s been any trauma surrounding motherhood.   In my case, there are two main, very simple reasons why I haven’t had children, aside from gynecological issues - the first is that I have never met anyone I thought was suitable to father my children. The second wasn’t conscious and I’ve only realised it recently but ultimately I had shit to do guys. I had things I wanted to experience before I had children and things I wanted to do for myself, which is the case for a growing number of women. Did those Uber drivers ever think of either of those two things when they asked me those questions? That it is sometimes a woman’s choice to not have children. For some of us it’s not that we’re sitting here, waiting in the wings for someone to choose us to be the mother of their children. 

 

There’s so much to say on this matter - I suspect this will be yet another recurring theme of this podcast. But to kick this discussion off, I spoke to the incredibly outspoken Liz Scott to discuss her very clear decision to not have children and her experience of having a hysterectomy a few months ago. Liz has become a bit of a spokesperson recently for smashing expectations about motherhood, she’s featured in the Berlin Based WE ARE CHILD FREE PROJECT - she’s also spoken to the likes of The New York Times about her decision to not become a mother. Now I love the irony of what Liz does for a living and we start by talking about that… 

 

Tell me about your job, what’s your job description 

 

ES

I’m a high profile nanny, is my job description. So I look after newborn babies of people in the public eye. Usually start when they’re around three, four months. Usually stay for the first year of their life, one or two - maximum. 

 

JG

Have you ever stayed longer, with the kids?

 

ES

Yeah, for sure, yeah. The longest I’ve stayed was from 0 to 5. 

 

JG

Was that just because you loved the kids?

 

ES

Yeah, I did, that particular child, but it also just messes you up when you stay for that long. 

 

JG

Really

 

ES

Yeah, so after that job I made a conscious decision to just nip it in the bud and just get the job done, you know, and just switch every year because then you don’t get too attached. 

 

JG

Right, right. And what is it about newborns? 

 

ES

Errr… you can take them to wine shops?

 

BOTH LAUGH

 

ES

Yeah, babies are so cute and I really just like having an influence and an impact on children. When they’re so young they’re taking in absolutely everything like a sponge. 

 

JG

I also think you’re also having a massive impact on the women, on the mothers as well

 

ES

That’s a really good point, that’s true

 

JG

You’re like the most helpful you could ever be in that first really difficult year. 

 

ES

Right. Exactly. Giving them tips on what to do, how to manage, I’ve seen a million babies, this is their first one. It is very handy. 

 

JG

Yeah. So the reason that I wanted to talk to you was that you’ve been very vocal about your decision not to have children and you’ve been involved in various projects that promote women being child free. Have you always known that you don’t want kids? 

 

ES

Kind of. I’ve always had an inkling. And then I really made the firm decision at about 26. 

 

JG

I mean obviously, not wanting kids and not liking kids are two completely separate things but like how did you get into child care?

 

ES

It’s really funny actually, I got into child care because I hated kids

 

JG

Oh, you’re joking LAUGHS

 

ES

Yeah, absolutely despised kids - kids, babies, the lot of them. Then my mum became pregnant, she didn’t plan it, when she was 40 so I was already 19 turning 20 and I was like sod this this is going to ruin my life, I’m not babysitting, I don’t want to come home from work and listen to screaming, I was just like I don’t want to live in a house with a baby and she was like well tough because we’re having one, this is happening. And she was like, you know what you’ve got real big attitude, why don’t you go and do something else with your time, like go and volunteer in a play centre, or do something. Just learn to like children, you know, they’re really innocent, it’s not going to be your brother’s fault when he comes into this world and I really think you ought to do something so that you aren’t mean to him. I was like, she’s got a point. And I did it and it turned out to be so much fun. And I was like, ah, not all kids are little shits, some of them are pretty cool and they have interesting things to say and then what, 15 years later, well, 20 rather, I’ve just decided what I like best, but I’ve worked with all kids, and teenagers, and, yeah it’s really interesting. 

 

JG

I’ve been having a look at the We Are Child Free project which is great - how did you find that, did they reach out to you? Or was that through someone that you knew?

 

ES

So it was someone that I knew, loosely, I started to see her stories and early interviews just cropping up and I was like, oh that seems interesting, I can really relate to that. I’ve always been the odd one out with my friends that really had long term relationships - it’s funny because I still get broody from time to time. I’m like ‘ohhh that baby’s so cute…’ I mean, I’m not sure you can call it the same thing but I’ve often wondered about what it would be like if I was to be a mum, I have a baby name list on my phone that I compare with my friends - it’s really weird, but when I think about it for long enough and when I discuss it for long enough, I’m like… eughhh. NO! I don’t want to. I really don’t want to be responsible for another human being for the rest of my life. 

 

I think Lis might be legitimately a modern day Mary Poppins but make Mary a feminist who discusses women’s reproductive rights - she has the whole ‘I’ll leave when the wind changes’ vibe and I can imagine her being relatively stern but fun nanny, which I think Mary Poppins was supposed to be. 

 

JG

That’s totally fair enough

 

ES

Yeah, I don’t want to. I like kids, I like spending time with them, my closest friends are in the process of getting kids or already have a kid and I’m super excited to be an auntie or a proxy parent but it’s like, nooo! I have absolutely no desire to go through all of that forever. 

 

JG

Do you feel like the odd one out?

 

ES

Yeah. Definitely. 100 percent. But I’ve always been like that. Because you grow up thinking, right, I’ve got to meet someone, especially because also I went to secondary school just outside of London and that’s more suburban and that’s what suburban people tend to do - you go to school, you go to college and you either go straight to uni or you stick with your boyfriend or your girlfriend or whatever that you’ve had since forever and you talk about moving in together and yadida and I, even just the moving in part with someone, I had friends who moved in with boyfriends as young as 19, 20. 

 

And I was like why? Why do you want to get a mortgage at that age? I was like, I want to travel! I don’t even want to live in this country. And I just did it! I’ve always been that odd one that went travelling here, learnt this language, ate that food and my friends just lived vicariously through me and then it was only really when I moved to Paris where I met women who were the same as me - or what I felt were the same as me. Now they’re some of my closest friends, the only difference is they want to be parents and I don’t. 

 

JG

I think everything you’ve just said I relate to it so much, definitely helps to be surrounded by women who just respect what you’re doing, even if you’re the odd one out, they’ll still respect it. So you grew up just outside of London?

 

ES

I grew up in London, West London, W10, represent… laughs… Left when I was 13 and my mum bought a house in Milton Keynes. I moved to Paris, I only did one year at first because, I dunno, it didn’t really agree with me, so I left Paris and then I moved to Milan. I stayed in Italy for a bit, and then I was like, nope, I’ll go back to Paris. I stayed in Paris for 9 years and now I’m in my fourth year in Berlin. 

 

JG

But your family, did you say, were Ghanian. So Ghanian. London. But, like London and then also suburbs. And Paris. And Paris. And Milan. How do you think all of those cultures think of child free women and have you had different treatment in all of those countries and cultures that you’ve been exposed to about not having kids

 

ES

Good question! I hadn’t thought too much about it, right, because when I move countries it’s always for childcare, so the people that I’m having around are family people right, so, I don’t know. 

 

In Italy - no. It wasn’t that weird I don’t think. It was also still a period where I was still just deciding, I wasn’t quite sure, so my answers to questions around that probably weren’t as defined or harsh. And then Paris… yeah… people did find it strange, but not very strange because it’s super difficult to meet someone in Paris - French men are absolute lotharios, you know

 

JG 

Cheeky laugh

Yeah I know I’ve dated a couple 

 

ES

Also Paris is the first city where I met a lot of older mums, you know? So it was never really an issue for me then, I’ve only really been talking about it more and more since I’ve moved to Berlin and in particular since I’ve moved to Prenzlauerberg because, don’t quote me on this but I think Prenzlauerberg is just the most populated neighbourhood of people starting families - it’s like a known place to come and have a kid because everything facilitates young families here. 

 

JG

That’s really interesting but I also feel like Berlin is a place where… you know if you want to move to Berlin and be in a thruple and adopt a kid and raise them with two other people, Berlin is the place to go because it’s very open minded family structure wise, and also everything else wise. 

 

ES

Yeah this is also why people are still moving to Berlin in a hurry right, yeah, it’s a really interesting place, especially for my job anyway. 

 

JG

I’m Cypriot, I’m 33 and childless. I would like to have kids but I dunno when it’s gonna happen. And I see my aunties looking at me out the side of their eyes like… what’s she doing? She’s VERY old. Does that happen in Ghanian culture as well?

 

ES

Absolutely. Especially African women, it's customary to just pop them out, not really stop. Like no way. I’m so far removed from that anyway, but also it’s quite different because my mum moved to London when she was 5 so she’s more British than Ghanaian, so it changes and influences a lot because she didn’t really have that so it wasn’t really passed on to us

 

JG

I’m sort of in the same situation because my mum was born here, but I do still see it in the diaspora, like even though people are here and their families have been here for 50 years but there’s still these old school pressures. Although, there’s pressure on women full stop

 

ES

Absolutely. It’s really unpopular to be a woman unfortunately.

 

JG 

Oh yeah it is really is I’ve noticed that 

 

THEY BOTH LAUGH 

 

JG 

I think the thing that really interests me is about your hysterectomy. I read a couple of things and listened to another podcast with a woman who wanted to have a hysterectomy and was surprised to find, I say I’m surprised I’m not really, that her doctors didn’t want her to have a hysterectomy. How do you find your doctors treated you and your decision to have a hysterectomy 

 

ES

This was interesting because I never really saw a whole bunch of doctors when I lived in France. The decision that led up to the hysterectomy was the fact that I found out I had endometriosis so my periods were absolutely awful and they’ve always been awful and I’ve kind of just put up with it because, you know, that’s what women do. We put up with things. We think ‘oh well, I’ve been dealt a bad card but I’m sure someone else has it the same’ you just put things to the side and crack on with it. And then one particular month the pain was absolutely excruciating. I would come on my period and sometimes they would be so strong I would just pass out. I was like this can’t be happening when I’m in charge of another human being that is so tiny and can’t walk. What if I’m carrying a baby. Luckily I’ve been putting up with it for so long that I recognised the signs when it was happening when I was in too much pain. And of course you don’t take time off of work once a month so you just kind of deal with it. And then after passing out I was like enough is enough this isn’t normal. This pain isn’t normal. Guys are so stupi, sorry to say that but, male doctors were like it’s not that bad, take paracetamol, take this, take that lie down. And it’s like are you married? Do you have sisters? Do you talk to any women at all? Do you think I would waste my time, coming to the doctor, crying, begging for help if it wasn’t that bad?  I wanted to slap every male doctor I met

 

One mum that I was working for at the time had just had a baby and she was like do you know what maybe you should go and see my doctor, she’s a woman, she’s a gynecologist, so went to see her and I’d been to see gynecologists before and had examinations before and I was never told anything about endometriosis and maybe you wanna do this, or, you know, nothing. I swear it took this one doctor 5 minutes to diagnose me - maybe it was just one woke doctor and my good luck. She gave me an ultrasound and she was like ‘OH MY GOD’ she said a lot of that before she actually told me what was wrong with me

 

JG

If a doctor says that to you, if a doctor starts saying ‘oh my god’ to you, you know it’s bad

 

ES

It was terrifying. She was like ‘look at this on the screen’ and I was like ‘What? Like I don’t know what’s happening! And she was like ‘well, either you are pregnant right now or that is an absolutely humongous fibroid inside of you.’ And I took a photograph of it because I couldn’t believe it but she was like ‘this is your womb, the space around your womb and this is the space that the fibroid is taking up’ and it was almost all of it - I’ve still got the photo. It was insane. And she was like ‘you need to call a doctor this week to see when you can get that removed.’ And it just snowballed from there really. And I absolutely refused from that point on to see any more male doctors about this problem. This is about my period, my body, my womb so I didn’t want a man’s opinion on it. I'm sure you’re very trained in that area, but still I’m only trusting a woman on this matter because it now looks like I’m going to have to be operated on. So I started to join women’s groups, looked more into what endometriosis was and from the point of diagnosis to hysterectomy was about 7 weeks. And at first my gynecologist, even though she was super nice and  really woke was like ‘hmm I don’t think you should have a hysterectomy, it's pretty drastic. You say you don’t want kids now but anything could happen, anything.’ And I was like ‘Nah. Listen to me. ok, let’s play your game. Say I meet the absolute love of my life tomorrow. I'm  39. What are we gonna do? Like i’m gonna suddenly decide I love him so much that I wanna carry on having these painful periods, probably find it incredibly hard to conceive because I do have endometriosis, and all the other reasons that I said I didn’t want kids, do you think that they’re just going to disappear overnight because I’m in love with someone? Like that’s a lot to not be bothered about for the sake of a man, right. 

 

JULIA LAUGHS 

 

And then we just both just cracked up laughing and she said ‘yeah alright, I’ll sign your paper, you can have your hysterectomy (she says this, laughing)

 

JG

If you came and said that to me I’d be like, yeah, alright, I get it, no questions asked, I don’t know who these men are who are telling you no because i don't know how they can’t see that you know what you want

 

ES

There’s so many men that tell me, to the point that the insanity even reaches to the level where on a dating app, ok so I’m on Hinge and Hinge is quite specific. You have to write if you want kids or not, like all questions are super specific so you know as much about the person before you meet them. So my page clearly says I’m child free, also can’t have children, that was my choice to put that on there. So then you go on a date with a guy. So this guy was like ‘yeah I don't want kids, bla bla bla, I read your interviews, this, that, it’s really empowering, bla bla bla,’ he gave it all that speech probably just wanted to get laid. Second date he was like ‘Hmmm I’ve thought about it actually and I really want kids I really think you might change your mind too’ and I was like (makes a funny noise) excuse me? I’ve chosen not to have children. Do you understand how that works? He was like ‘yeah but you can do surrogacy, you can adopt, I think you might still want to be a mum’ and I was like ‘you’re a prick. Just get out of my face, don't waste my time again, do me a favour, don't waste any woman’s time again. If she writes on her profile, if you meet her and the answer is no, no, no then take it as a fucking no.’

 

JG

I mean what you just said is a question of consent, it’s coming at us from every angle, I’m horrified… I don’t know what to say, I think it’s different for me because I do want kids but I feel like that hasn’t been taken seriously either. Like I think there’s been a lot of guys who’ve wasted my time, who’ve known full well that I want kids without intending on having kids with me. I think in the medical sense, I’ve also had that experience. I was misdiagnosed with endometriosis when I was 19 by a male gynecologist - he said ‘you have endometriosis, we’re going to operate on you but you need to think about having kids very soon otherwise you’re not going to be able to have kids.’ 

 

ES

Nooo 

 

JS

Yeah. He operated on me, I don't know what he did, fast forward a few years and I saw a new gynecologist, lady gynecologist and she said ‘I don’t think you’ve got endometriosis, I don’t think you ever did and this guy has left you with scar tissue.’ When you said I don’t want to see male doctors anymore, I also made that decision then - NO MORE MEN LOOKING AT MY EQUIPMENT. Like I said before I do want a family - sometimes I wish I didn’t. Sometimes I wish I had that kind of attitude because I think it would be easier because then I could just live my life without everyone giving me an opinion. But then again, everyone gives you an opinion about everything anyway. 

 

ES

Yep. 

 

JS

I mean I guess you are very much an independent woman, like you live on your own and I guess you’ve lived on your own for a long time. Is there anything that you go to when you cook for yourself?

 

ES

I do like food, I also really like cereal which I’m not sure counts as food that you cook. And that unfortunately, I’m going to have to lower the tone of the food podcast’

 

JG

Nah it’s fine, I love a low tone

 

ES

That is my go to ‘I’m upset, he’s an idiot I’m gonna eat a bowl of toppers’ 

 

JG

Oh that’s interesting - that’s like your break up food

 

ES

Yup because it’s super easy, I don't have to worry about it, it’s sugary or I can have one that's not sugary or I can have one that looks fun. I love cereal, it’s like my chocolate. I think the worst ones I eat are toppers and crunchy nut cornflakes. But otherwise it’s things like weetabix, shreddies, I dunno, so many… raisin wheats… Dinner for me is the hardest thing. I would like to eat dinner with someone or eat out. Also because of my job right, I always have to cook and plan meals for a baby that usually involves cooking something nice then smashing it up or putting it in the blender. 

 

THEY LAUGH

 

JG 

Do you ever just take it home though Lis?

 

ES

Yeah I do, I’ve eaten mushy puree so many times because it tastes so damn good. But it’s not instagrammable. I can't be like ‘oh look what I’m eating for dinner, or I’m so proud of this roast chicken that I’ve made.’ Also, living on my own, I don't want to make this delicious big meal and then eat it four times a week.’

 

JG

Well that’s why you’ll have to listen to my podcast. 

Yeah I know what you mean. 

I feel like there’s a diet in that though, I feel like there’s a diet fad you can start… the eating some high quality baby food diet

I feel like you could make millions off it to be honest with you

 

ES

Alright let’s ™ it now, it’s my idea. We’re gonna come up with fancy baby food, also good for adults

 

JG

Also good for the busy adult…

 

They both crack up laughing 

 

JG 

That’s all the food chat needs to be - I’m really happy with that. Cereal and baby food.

 

They laugh even more. 

 

I think Lis might legitiamaly be a modern day Mary Poppins but make Mary a feminist who discusses women’s reproductive rights. She’s got the whole I’ll leave when the wind changes kind of vibe, and I think she’d be a really stern but super fun nanny which I think Mary Poppins was supposed to have been as well. 

 

I just want to talk about hysterectomies a little bit more - as you can hear, Lis is a resolute person who did the research. It’s not a case of I have endometriosis or whatever issue it is so I’ll remove my womb and it’ll be gone, it’s not that simple and Liz was aware of that - though she does tell a good story and she is hilarious, she did know it was no laughing matter. There’s implications and a long recovery time afterwards, as there is when you remove any major organ… I wanted to share what she posted on her instagram feed a few days ago, it really touched me and really made me admire her decision not only to not to be a mother, but her journey to try and heal herself from all the pain that her illness has caused her - I don’t think her decision was difficult in the sense that she knew for a fact she didn’ want kids, so it would have been less difficult than for someone who might have wanted kids in the future but it is difficult to stick to your guns when EVERYONE is telling you that you might change your mind

 

She writes. 

 

‘As the sun goes down on this day, I sit here, thinking to myself “I’m still a work in progress, but it’s really nice being me, and I’m very lucky to be in better health than I was 6 months ago” A big thought-I know but today is exactly SIX MONTHS since I was operated on. 

Monday flew by, and it’s only now that I’m taking a moment to realize that I did something really major and that I’m still adjusting to my moving organs, figuring out why sometimes I still bleed and getting slightly anxious about my upcoming review. 

 

There’s an awful lot more going on in this head of mine. The heart too! I’m quite emotional just now (code for crying) but, I wanted to share at least this: 

 

For anyone who is also walking towards their future self. Full of light and wonder. 

 

To us x’

 

Thank You so much to Lis, I really wish her healing and I think the biggest thing I wish for Lis is no more bullshit in her life from here on in. If there’s anything that we’ve spoken about in the podcast that has touched you or you feel like you want to share your own story of motherhood and loneliness, if you’ve had issues surrounding your own fertility or you’ve had endometriosis or any other gynecological problem, please get in touch with me. I’d love to hear from you. 

 

Now, I’m going to leave luxury baby food recipes  to Lis, because she’s already TMD and I it would be super patronising if I left you a recipe to make cereal but in the theme of fun grains to eat at breakfast time, I do want to leave you with a recipe for one of my favourite things to make myself for breakfast. Overnight oats. I often can’t be bothered to make myself a good breakfast when I’m on my own. I get lazy. But sometimes I make a batch of this up - it usually lasts me about 3 or 4 days. Overnight oats are super simple to make, and it always starts my day off right. You can top your oats with fun things like honey or nut butters or fruit or yoghurt, so it doesn’t feel like you’re eating the same thing everyday and also they’re good for little snacks throughout the day.  You can find the recipe and more information about this podcast at theediblearchive.org, just scroll through to the How To Eat Alone section of the website. I’ve put the links to the We Are Child Free project, which is awesome you should definitely check it out, and to endometriosis help pages and a few bits of information about period health.  You can find more about my project on instagram and facebook, the instagram handle is the.edible.archive. And, as always, if you like this podcast, please, please share it with someone who you think might like it as well. Thank you for listening to me and supporting this pod. I really hope you enjoyed being alone with me and I’ll see you soon for the next episode of How to eat alone...



 

 

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